I spent my day in Poland going to tour the Auschwitz-Birkenau Memorial and Museum.

It’s a two hour train ride from Krakow’s main station, and it costs $3. It took longer than the bus, but I wanted to ride the train to see scenery of what (maybe?) the deported Jews would’ve seen on their way to Auschwitz and reflect on that.

This was a long and heavy day, but I’m really glad that I went. I took a group tour with a guide who works for the museum (alternatively, you can get a private tour company guide or just walk around on your own). He was direct, passionate, and captivating. The first thing he told us was that he wasn’t politically correct. The second thing he said was something along the lines of: “Make no mistake about it – Auschwitz didn’t come about because of ‘Nazis’… who were ‘Nazis’? It was a political party… there were no ‘Nazis’. Auschwitz happened and is in the history because of Germans.” That set the stage for the rest of the day and his explanation of the history of the place.

"arbeit macht frei" - "work sets you free"

“arbeit macht frei” – “work sets you free”

The Auschwitz site was a Polish military barracks prior to being used as a concentration camp. It was chosen for logistical reasons – at the time, most of the Jews in Europe were located in eastern Europe (in 1939, there were 3.5 million Jews living in Poland; by the end of the war all but 300k were liquidated or died of starvation). Auschwitz was also chosen because it was along a railway. The camp was established in April of 1940 when SS officers went in and began organizing the operation. One of the first things they did was bring over German convicted criminals from another concentration camp to be trained to serve as the lackeys of the SS and oversee the discipline of the future Jewish prisoners (they were called “kapos”). Prior to the German occupation of Poland, there were years of ethnic tensions and conflicts between Polish Jews and non-Jews (I didn’t know this). Despite that, many Poles were identified as helping their Jewish countrymen, including many in Auschwitz. They risked their lives to hide the Jews or to provide food and other items to the prisoners in the camp and people in the ghettos (Gentiles who did this were later identified and awarded as “Righteous Among the Nations”).

The Germans tried to reuse everything plundered from the prisoners. They kept inventory of who had gold teeth so they knew to extract them before they put their bodies into the crematorium. They sold human hair to German manufacturing companies who used it to make blankets and jacket linings. Ashes from the crematoriums were used as fertilizer on crops that were grown. When Auschwitz was liberated, plundered items were still there. On the site tour, I saw a room full of 2 tons of human hair, another with 40,000 shoes, and another full of suitcases. This is just a portion of what was left at the camp, after the Germans had several days to start destroying things and moving items to Germany.


The ‘resettlement’ deportation announcements that were distributed in the ghettos exclaimed that it was time for the Jews to resettle but they could request exemptions. Many people filed for exemptions and were rejected. One exemption letter I saw was from a new mother, asking to let her baby avoid resettlement and stay behind in an orphanage because she was worried the baby wouldn’t survive the journey. The baby was sent to an orphanage in the ghetto and died two weeks after her mother was resettled and liquidated. It’s difficult to think about someone going through this process and what they must have been feeling and thinking, not knowing what their fate would be but hoping for some kind of positive outcome.

Our tour guide has worked at the museum for several years. He told stories about meeting Auschwitz survivors. He told us about one survivor who had visited, and he asked her if she was still affected by her time in Auschwitz. She said “Not regularly. But you know what bothers me, Simon? Stripes. I can’t wear clothes with stripes.” I started crying thinking about this woman who was so traumatized that she still suffers when randomly presented with something banal, which then triggers her trauma.

photo on wall of prisoner

photo on wall of female prisoner

During the war, Birkenau and Auschwitz were expanded to increase throughput. The gas chambers and crematoriums weren’t big enough to kill as many people as Himmler wanted in a certain amount of time, so they built out the sites to increase liquidation. Disgusting.

When Auschwitz was liberated by the Soviets, 7,000 prisoners were found alive. Because they were so malnourished, only 500 of them ended up surviving. There is a platform outside the main gate of the camp where, after the Polish government put the Commandant of Auschwitz on trial, they executed him by hanging.

It’s hard to consider the enormity of the Holocaust. Even though it was a difficult day, I’m glad that I toured Auschwitz. It’s one of the most memorable parts of my trip, for obvious and impactful reasons. I feel more sensitive to hate rhetoric now, and I understand (even more) why certain politicians truly scare people with their unresponsible words. It also makes me think about the travesties that are currently occurring in the world and what we, or me, or anyone, is doing about those. In some moments, I think the world has a bright future, and in other moments, it looks extremely bleak. A person I greatly respect and admire told me something very simple one time, but it reverberated with me. He said, “Things change, and we make decisions.” I interpret as: “You are in control of how you are affected. You are not a victim.” To take it a step further, I also like to think: “Things stay the same, and we make decisions.” What we do in this world and the legacy we leave as individuals – all depends on the decisions we make, every day. This trip I’m on, with new experiences, ample time for reflection and my renewed motivation to examine some of the questions I’ve always had, has led to ideas starting to develop, and I’m eager to see what kinds of decisions those notions eventually lead to.

Next up: Lovely Prague

7 Comments on “Auschwitz

  1. That had to be difficult but important. Thanks for writing such a good capture of history. The suitcases were hard to look at as probably was most everything.

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing your visit to Auschwitz. I too have seen movies, documentaries and read books, but to hear from someone who took the tour is a whole other side to the story. I was watching a 5 part documentary months ago on Auschwitz, how it started and how it came to be what it was in the end. I have to admit I only made it through 2 hours, it was just so hard to understand how people thought this was ok and went along with it. It was also so hard to watch the ways they tried to perfect how they murdered the Jews.
    I’m glad to hear your trip is having the effect you wanted it to have, reading some of your posts it sounds like it’s had an even bigger effect than you thought it would. I’ve appreciated you sharing your journey with us.

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  3. And now I weep. Not only for the atrocities within this post, but for the beautiful amazing woman I am proud to call my daughter who wrote it….. Hope springs eternal.

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  4. Thank you for sharing that post. I have seen the movies and read the books. But hearing some of these specifics. We have to be careful never to repeat those kinds of acts in our future history.

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